So. Let's get the truth out of the way here, up front and discreetly: 2004, for me, really, really, really sucked. I lost some good friends, lost a good job, had to put my career on hold, had to deal with being unemployed for rather longer than was comfortable, and found out things about myself that I would rather not have known.
(Before this year, I never understood why kallah had such dislike for teenagers. Now, I understand quite, quite well.)
I have seldom known a year full of such bad luck. In fact, the last time I had a year like this was back in '97.
However, the year after that (1998, for those of you who may not be keeping up), I had a lot of good things happen to me--chiefly, meeting apis_mellifera and moving out to Nebraska to make a fresh start. And so I'm holding on to the encouraging thought that maybe 2005 will work out for me in a similar way; particularly in the moving-somewhere-to-start-over department.
I mean, let's be honest. There's nothing keeping me here in Nebraska anymore aside from lack of money. I have no reason to stay here, and plenty of reasons to move somewhere else. So, I've definitely decided to leave UNL and move out east and try my fortunes there. And this New Year's, when you're all drinking your toasts to auld lang syne and such... well, please spare me some good wishes that I'll be moved out east by this time next year.
And while I may have lost friends this year, I've also received immense support from friends who were kind-hearted and loyal enough to stay by me, and I thank you all for that from the bottom of my heart. I hate that I have to leave you, those of you here in town, but I think we can all agree that this is for the best. (And I promise to have a going-away party, to which you are all invited when it actually ends up happening.) Besides, with Livejournal and instant messaging these days, it's not like nobody will ever hear from me again when I do leave.
2004 was a year of changes that I didn't want, ask for, or welcome. For 2005, let it be a year of changes that I make myself, from my own desires.
Happy New Year, everyone.